THREE POEMS by NAT RAUM

why remember when you can forget?

hollow front teeth pulse against a perfect cup of tea, peach and spearmint and lemongrass brewed with too much honey and far too hot, encased in a babypink bass pro shops mug. the playoffs paint my room in regal purple light and i choke through vaporsmoke until my head spins. why is it sunday? why am i afraid of my pilot light? why do nfl commentators need to be on a first name basis with every quarterback? why is it twenty degrees? five years ago i’d have drank a beer or six to warm up. now i use sensodyne toothpaste and wince when i take my nighttime tea, and instead of passing out, the citylight expires around me until i am the only thing stirring besides dustydry air through the radiator. i used to be good at this. memory used to find me happy and if not, i’d just fall asleep, surrender the act of remembering. why feel when you can lay stiff and silent?


there’s nothing in california that you could not learn to hate here

After “Flying Model Rockets”

rocket whines skyward, scatters sparks

onto dry bluegrass, induces heart palpitations.

there may not be droughts in virginia

right now but i bite my thumbnails

and await a forest fire while rocket reaches

peak, parachutes gently to lakeshore

as stasis surrounds me, grips each limb

with enough fervor to bruise. (don’t get me

wrong, i like marks from zealous thumbs

on my thighs as much as the next guy—

this is just a different kind of hunger.)

sky glazes itself with dusk, paleyellow

rippling off glassy water

until it’s gone.


i personally think it’s too cold to have the windows open

After “Awkward Conversations”

i love what you’ve done: sucked mint juleps

and fernet and cola through your lungs

like smoke, greedythirsty as a gazelle

guzzling pondwater in the desert. shiver

in the dark, in the frame of a window

you accidentally left open. i love the way

you grip a teacup (so gingerly) with pinky

extended (now that’s fancy), the way you

flip over an LP with one finger on each

side like it’s a precious heirloom. light

my marlboro green with the safety matches

in your patchwork bag; scatter our breaths

through the darkening sky as we exhale

cirrus wisps into the night.


nat raum (they/them) has seen over 200 episodes of the House Hunters franchise. They remember almost none of it. 

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